Sick of being sick....

The positive in all of this is that my Xolair injections(every 2 weeks) are working because I haven't needed my inhalers more than usual. I was up all night coughing, my throat is non-stop dry, just as I'd start to drift off, I'd have to clear it again. GGrrrrrr. Never really got much sleep because everything that has irked me in the last 20 years surfaced in that twilight sleep. Got up this morning mad at the world and dh, and the kids, and a flirty mom in our ward. I'm missing a trip to Yosemite with the kids and dh today because I can't even hike around. The cold air feels like razor blades going down my throat. I'm sick of missing things with my kids. Dh still hasn't figured out how to use the camera so his pictures are all going to be fuzzy. I won't even get any clear shots of their trip. Two days before the kids got out for vacation I got sick, and I haven't been able to enjoy it at all. I feel like a heel for being sick AGAIN, and being the one holding the family back from doing fun things. Dh will probably sleep on the couch again because I'm of my coughing. Tomorrow I'll improve a little more, it's just so stinkin' slow and irritating. Woe is me.